Randomly gloomy

The year is
2003
a whole new chapter in front of me.

This is not about now or tomorrow

This is about the first time

Firts time I met her

First time I know her

First timeI talk to her

First time I lie to her

First time I give her the video

First time I realize that she’s not for me

And I decided to let her go

but

Castle in the air about her charm

and
The weaknesses of my feeling

Always ruined out my life

and now, 2018
till yesterday

I didn’t even able to say Hi

Though I already beside her

How dumb am I….